Wednesday, May 06, 2009
It's all over.
I want to escape it all. I'm tired and it's too much for me to handle.
I thought this was my escape route, little did I know that this was actually the road of doom.
Goodbye world. Till we meet/talk again.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:12 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
On days like these, nostalgia really hits me hard in the face.
It's when I realize how much I actually miss you all. The pang of sadness that hit me is so great that it's suddenly so difficult to breathe.
I've drifted apart from you all, but that's inevitable, isn't it? I guess that's what life is all about, but no one and nothing can replace you all. ):
I love you all very very much.
everytime I hear the word 'surprise', you all immediately pop into my mind. Because back then, we couldn't live without surprise, could we? (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
3:12 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Omg, they need to stop asking about how I want to celebrate my birthday.
I don't really care because I can never celebrate like how I used to. A dinner at an expensive restaurant, a haagen daz ice cream cake, and fiona, my bitch. D:
(Yeah, that's my standard family birthday celebration.)
(And SHH, I know I'm spoilt. :D)
So, just anything, okay? Please don't keep probing, because it's going to turn me nostalgic. And I'm already starting to be depressed.
Oh yes, and I'm having raging moods of late, so if I'm ignoring anyone, it's because I'm trying to keep my temper in control.
I'm sorry I'm rude.Omg, I hope this Friday is still on! Can't wait, because I totally need it. I hope Vincent keeps his promise. :D
This is for the best isn't it? I'll get over you, eventually, but on the other hand, please don't take this too hard, because it's heart-breaking. I'm really sorry for being so harsh with my words. And the last thing I'm asking, is for you to take care of yourself.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
7:56 PM
Monday, April 13, 2009
First of all,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHILBEEEEE!
I miss your high-ness. I miss your laughter. I miss your obsession for everything that you're obsessed with. (HAHA, I don't think that makes sense.) But most of all, I miss YOU. ):
Till now, I still remembered that birthday party that we planned for you at your house. And it was so memorable, because it was one of the few surprises that I've put a lot of effort in. (And one of the most expensive. HAHA)
Basically I LOVE YOU A LOT A LOT. And I'll always be waiting for you in Canada, love. <3
April, I've barely gotten through half the month, but so many things have happened. This Easter especially, what a roller coaster ride it has been.
Friday was loveeee. (:
Went to pmall to AHEM AHEM with Francis, Gladys and Florence, my three lovelies. HAHA, if you're curious, ask me personally. My blog is under surveillance, so I must be careful with my words. After that Leo came and drove us to FMP! It really seem as though he came specially to drive us. D: Caught fast and furious (omg, pretty cars), after which we bought sushi, and went to Gladys' house! Spent our girls' night being crazy, pissed off, and sad. What a mix of emotions. :/
It's funny how I'm not excited at all as the 19th draws near. It feels as though the 19th is just any other day, without the need for any special attention. Birthdays doesn't feel important anymore. Maybe it really isn't. When people asked how I want to spend my birthday, all I could answer is 'I don't know'. Because I really don't. But one thing, it sure is going to be a lonely birthday without family. D: FIONA, I NEED YOU. (I want nobody, nobody, but you~)
(Sorry, I think I'm a little high.)
p.s. JASMINELAW! I love you very very very much too. Thanks for listening to me throughout this whole weekend. I don't know what I'll do without you. (: Sorry for making you worry okay! And it's totally not worth it because of some idiot. D:
You still owe me lots of stories! I promise I won't tease you anymore! <3
I told you not to bust your second chance. All I'm asking is just to be treated better, and more respect. The moment I break through this wall, I won't look back. Don't worry, I won't die without you. Don't think too highly of yourself. And please, don't make me feel sorry for you, because of your hopeless-ness.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
4:37 PM
Friday, April 03, 2009
Midterm marks are finally being submitted. No more stressing out and sleepless nights. All there's left is just waiting. Waiting for acceptance.
I don't have to work so hard anymore. Now I'll finally get time to catch up with everything I've missed out.
It's finally the month of April (my favourite month of the year), but this April has started off so bad, that it's no longer my favourite. Thinking back on how I was depressed every birthday, I feel so stupid. Why on earth would I even be depressed? This birthday, I'll be alone. But even so, I'm thankful because I have wonderful friends in Singapore.
Some many things have been happening lately, I can't believe my life can be so dramatic. I wonder how much my mental capacity can hold. :/
And YOU. Don't say that I've never given up anything. Thinking back, I did lose quite a bit. Things that are precious to me. And don't try pushing all the blame on me. You're not flawless. There is a limit to how much I can take in silently. No one has ever degraded me like you did. I'm sorry I'm like that in your eyes, but I too, am loved by others.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
3:50 PM
Saturday, February 28, 2009
I'm not lesbian, I'm positive. :D
(But I'm willing to turn lesbian for you HAHAHA <3)
I really really really miss you too.
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To not be able to keep a promise made, it feels so terrible.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
1:29 PM
Friday, February 27, 2009
School work has been driving me crazy and I realized that I haven't been talking to people in Singapore. I haven't had a decent conversation with all my favourite people on earth. I'm so sorry. ): ): ): This weekend I'll try to make up for it!
And I realized I have TONS of emails accumulated. Which I either am too lazy or don't have time to reply to. I'M SORRY.
I've gotten my first acceptance two days ago! :D Now I don't have to worry about not making it in into university. I don't have to worry about having to stay back for another year. I just have to make sure I meet all the requirements and GRADUATE from high school. :D
A little encouragement would have been nice, thank you very much.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
6:25 PM